Post Four: If only I was a celebrity...

My thoughts for today...

Wouldn't it be nice, if I were a celebrity, and had my own chef, and my own personal trainer, and a weight loss program willing to pay me - not that I'd need it, because I'd already be independently wealthy?


Wouldn't it be great, if I could take off the next three months, and hide away at a "spa," and emerge a new, thin, fit person, who only eats tofu and fruit, and drinks organic juice?


Wouldn't it be awesome, if I were one of those granola girls, who lived for yoga, and ran 3 miles every day, and wore only organic cotton tank tops, and volunteered for Habitat for Humanity, and baked chocolate chip cookies (but didn't eat any, ever)?


And then I realize...no, that wouldn't be great.  I'd hate being a celebrity, with a camera trained on me 24/7, always worrying about what the world thinks.  It would be awful to hide away at a spa, or anywhere, without my family.  And, most of all, I really like chocolate chip cookies.

This journey isn't about becoming some over-idealized version of myself, nor does it do me any good to sit and fret over what I don't have in my life.  Life is work - whether you're a celebrity or not.  And I like making my own meals.  I'm pretty sure I won't become one of those people who never eats anything unhealthy ever, ever, ever.  I don't think I'd like myself if I did.  What I want, what I hope to accomplish through this path, is to get control over my eating habits - to get my portions back to normal, to cut out the mindless or emotional eating, to reduce my fat-sugar-carb intake, and to get to a place where I can enjoy eating, knowing that 90% of the time I eat super healthy.  I want to get back into exercising everyday, not because I have to, but because I want to, because I really enjoy the feeling of lightness and strength that daily workouts bring.  


My goals for today are simple:  To eat clean from 2-3pm (so with yesterday's goal that equals from 2-4pm) and to go for a walk.


This journey is about becoming the person I want to be, the person I've always dreamed of being - not a celebrity or super-fit mega-star - but just me.  The very best possible version of me I can be.  So I guess the lesson for today is...